i'm having a bad self-esteem day. it sucks and i hate when i get like this because no matter how hard i fight, i feel like it's not good enough. so i was reading this website that said that you should list out the things that you are grateful for. so here goes:
- for family and friends that listen to the same woes over and over again
- for weakness that pushes you to be stronger
- peace that comes with silence
- tears that bring healing
- wisdom that comes with pain
- growth
- spiritual heritage of strength, courage and love
- unconditional love
- physical heritage that reminds me to be proud in the face of ridicule and self-doubt
- for family and friends that remind me that no matter how i FEEL, my image is that of a beautiful woman that goes after what she wants and keeps her eyes on the prize
there are so many things that i'm grateful for besides just things that pertain to me. i love and/or appreciate everyone around me for the parts that they play in my life. i try to keep myself ahead of the game and strive to be beautiful on the inside. because although i long for it, i know that physical beauty is fleeting.
Thursday, April 1, 2010
Hood to Coast...It Starts...
i received an email the other day from the running club at my job asking if i still wanted to be an alternate on the running team for Hood to Coast. you know how you don't know what's going on...? yeah, that's exactly how i felt reading the email. so let me explain...
every year my job participates as a sponsor of the Hood to Coast relay race in Oregon. each year they ask for volunteers to run and all of the running enthusiasts sign up and the people like me sign up to be alternates in case of emergency. well, i signed up thinking that i would never get the call to actually do it. but i did via email...and i said yes. it's basically a relay marathon where each team has it's runners take turns running 5-7 miles at a time until they get from the mountain to the coastline. i've never done it before but had heard great things about it and so, signed up like an idiot. just kidding...
when i got the email last friday asking if i was in, i was soooo excited. i thought i was going to pee my pants, i was so excited. but that quickly passed and turned into stress. i can't even run a mile, let alone 5-7. then red, my co-worker, reassured me that i had more than enough time to train and get it done. so my training officially started yesterday.
i ran/walked a little over a mile yesterday at lunch. it took me about 12 minutes to get back to where i started. and that was running without music - no distractions is apparently the key for my running style. Today i'm going out with a friend. we'll probably only do that one mile again, but it'll be good just to have someone with me for a change.
so this is the start of training. i'm going to try to track my progress here. i've been looking on a lot of websites that say that you should tell people about the races you have coming up to help keep you accountable with your training. so i'm going to post it here and hopefully, it will be the accountability that i need to make it do what it do.
every year my job participates as a sponsor of the Hood to Coast relay race in Oregon. each year they ask for volunteers to run and all of the running enthusiasts sign up and the people like me sign up to be alternates in case of emergency. well, i signed up thinking that i would never get the call to actually do it. but i did via email...and i said yes. it's basically a relay marathon where each team has it's runners take turns running 5-7 miles at a time until they get from the mountain to the coastline. i've never done it before but had heard great things about it and so, signed up like an idiot. just kidding...
when i got the email last friday asking if i was in, i was soooo excited. i thought i was going to pee my pants, i was so excited. but that quickly passed and turned into stress. i can't even run a mile, let alone 5-7. then red, my co-worker, reassured me that i had more than enough time to train and get it done. so my training officially started yesterday.
i ran/walked a little over a mile yesterday at lunch. it took me about 12 minutes to get back to where i started. and that was running without music - no distractions is apparently the key for my running style. Today i'm going out with a friend. we'll probably only do that one mile again, but it'll be good just to have someone with me for a change.
so this is the start of training. i'm going to try to track my progress here. i've been looking on a lot of websites that say that you should tell people about the races you have coming up to help keep you accountable with your training. so i'm going to post it here and hopefully, it will be the accountability that i need to make it do what it do.
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